March 28th is a special day for my history book, it is the day I was diagnosed with lyme disease. Most people when they hear the news that they have lyme it is a time of sadness, lyme is a very hard disease to live with and even harder to have victory over. But for me, it was a day to rejoice! I had spent years chasing symptoms and getting the same response from every doctor, nothing is wrong and I should get on medicine for depression. Praise the Lord for my family and their faith in the Lord and trusting me that I was telling the truth.
After six years that unexplainable pain was only getting worse, it was slowly killing me and doctors still had no clue what was wrong. Until one day in March my mother almost had to force my doctor in St. Louis to test me for lyme and the news came back on March 28th the day before my birthday that the test was positive! For the first time I actually knew what my body was fighting and that is a reason to rejoice!
The last year has flown so quickly and with it there have been ups and downs with my symptoms and emotionally but the rock in my life has been constant, because God never changes. These are two of the verses have I have claimed throughout this last year.
Now we have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure, this makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves. ~2 Corinthians 4:7
"Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold I am doing something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert." ~Isaiah 43:18-19
I have found that it does not matter where I am, what pain I have or anything else but it simply matters who God is. For much of my life I was focused on myself and it was only through my pain that my world was taken away from me in my eyes and I realized that even if I got it back it was temporary and I wanted eternal therefore I put my hope and faith in Christ and my life has radically changed since.
"There are blessings we will never obtain if we are unwilling to accept and endure suffering. There are certain joys that come to us only through sorrow. There are revelations of Gods divine truth that we will recive only when the lights of earth have been estinguished. And there are harvests that will grow only once the plow has done its work." Streams in The Desert Devotional (Oct 4)
There is a beauty that comes in the understanding that this is temporary, and searching for the one thing that is eternal. That is Christ Himself.
I have been doing fairly well on my new medications, I am struggeling with my memory once again but it is more-so minor for now. I have also been getting nasous after meals so I have been drinking pop but not near as much as I used to! I went almost two months without a single pop! One day I will be able to do that again, but for now its needed. My hand is starting to give out on me, the surgery is this thursday and it, like everything, has come in perfect timing!
My tendons are getting pretty sore they think it is simply from the cyst being a disturbance and hope the problem will be revealed during surgery or will go away when the cyst is gone. My left hand middle finger tendon is also hurting, I am hoping it may simply be due to overuse. I am right handed and have been favoring my left hand so it's not use to the exercise! The Lord has been teaching me through the lack of my right hand the same as He teaches me lessons through lyme and one thing I know is that He is a God that I can trust.
Prayer Requests:
*That surgery would go smoothly and successfully
*That I can finish my eight page paper before surgery thursday morning
*Healing for the next year of lyme
*That the Lord will continue to teach me great things through my lyme disease
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