I can not quite grasp time, it always goes faster than I expect and I always have more to do than I have time for, but I also know I am not alone in that one! FaithWalkers went well, my hips were pretty sore from sitting so often so for some of the messages I went to the floor on the side of the room and laid down which helped a lot! I also learned a lot, the main thing that I learned is having a fully surrendered heart and submitted will. The process of giving myself, my whole self to the Lord on a daily basis. Praying that my heart would be fully His and that my will would be in the hands of the Lord, that I wouldn't hold on to it but give myself up. I do not do this because I have to, I do it because I love God and He has done so much for me, I do this because I want to honor Him with my life, that He would receive glory from my life.
My lyme has been pretty consistent for most of December and the beginning of January, it honestly hasn't effected me much. Just over a week ago I started getting dizzy again and memory problems kicked in but thus far they are pretty small. I had a check-up with Dr P. last week and he said I was doing great! So we upped my weekend medication to two pills a day instead of one. This makes me a little sicker on the weekends but I can still cope normally. I have come to an understanding that no matter how well I feel going into Dr P. I will always feel worse after because he always ups a dose and he tells me it will make me sicker. I have come to embrace the change.
I learned something new about lyme, new lyme is born every twenty-eight days. So every twenty-eight days a lyme patient will feel sicker than usual because the new lyme was born and the medicine has more ground to cover. Usually it makes you sicker for about a week. This makes so much sense, the last month I have been wonderful except recently with the head stuff returning which is simply from new lyme birth. A good fact for me to know. :)
School started up again, I just finished my second week of the semester. This semester I am taking seven credits, and my teachers are all wonderful. This homework load will be much lighter than last semester with our insane projects! Praise God those are behind me! I also work more this semester, I work two three hour shifts in the infant room at my day care, I love it and am so thankful for my job and their flexibility with me. Hopefully as the semester continues on I will be able to work more.
Last semester was an insane semester for my classmates and I, but for me it was exceptionally hard. I was recommended to take a break from school while I fight lyme, I was told I would actually not be able to be a student due to my illness. I prayed about it and decided to push through school, I am in a part time program for Elementary Education through UNI at DMACC in Ankeny. I started my program last January, I started getting really sick in February, was diagnosed in March and was still very sick until August. I have been in the program through it all and the Lord has been so gracious to me! I still surprise my doctor every semester I successfully pass my classes and press on to the next. I surprise myself too because honestly its purely the grace of God, not me.
Due to a crazy fall semester I let parts of my treatment drop, I stopped doing water therapy and laser therapy. So my goal is to pick up all of those dropped areas and begin them again. I went to the Y for my water therapy on Thursday and it felt wonderful! I can't believe I didn't go for so long, but I am so glad to be back!
My right hand was doing wonderful for such a long time! It was such a blessing to have and use again, and still is! I started having pain in my hand again on Thursday and I feel a little bump but right now I can still use my hand. So I am praying that it goes away before it gets worse but I am thankful it lasted till the end of January which means if it comes back we can get surgery immediately.
My mom is doing well with her new diagnosis of lyme. When you start treatment for lyme the medicine brings out symptoms that you have never had before and intensifies symptoms that you did have. My mom is experiencing this but she is a trooper, she asks me questions but I have never heard her complain about it. An example worth following! My mom is on the tail end of a vacation to Florida, my parents went out to visit friends and family and had a wonderful time soaking up the sun! Especially my mom, heat helps a lot with pain.
I will leave you with a verse I am claiming for my family:
"Whom have I in heaven but you? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. The nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all Your works." ~Psalm 73:25-26, 28
May we keep our eyes on the Lord no matter what trial or blessing we are walking through.
*My mom and I will cling to the Lord during this battle
*That my cyst would go away and if it doesn't that I would have an attitude that gives God glory
*Diligence in picking up on the treatments I let fall last semester
*Grace in classes and completing all homework
*Praise: my dads lyme test came back negative
